Tuesday, April 11, 2006
23:14

ireallydontknowwhatiswrongwithme.

in the past; my mood was always the same..
(yeh most of you know how things went last time;
and that aint smth i wanna rmb)
then someone/thing- made me happier..
months have passed..
and i am now the happier;
the wayway much more optimistic Chartan..
and by far the most optimistic Chartan
you've seen in -years-

but i realise.. with happiness comes consequences..
since then..
the "sadness" comes at night..
and i can't seem to sleep
it's not that i'm worrying;
but

the negative thoughts just come to my head..
especially after11pm..
why? i always asked myself..
is it because my brain's malfunctioning
but i'm still trying to stay awake to study, stay online, or just simply..

stay awake?

now i suddenly feel so sad;
so whadafuck is wrong with Char?
issit just stress or something?
or is it realleh something wrong with Char's brain?

it realleh seems to get worse.. recently.. though i have
happy moments in the day...
and sometimes i just lie in bed for whatseemslikehours before i can knock out..
i don't force my eyes open.. i am physically tired..
but shits keep running through mah head every now and then at night..

sad things that seems so reaL?
and sad things that looks like can happen anytime the next day.. like just now; the moment i turned on the song 'Almost Here' by Bryan McFadden feat. Delta Goodrem... and went online to get da lyrics.. all the negative pieces of shit just came knocking at my door..

some ppl noticed that i've been really quiet and tired the past weeks.. but i look happy.. what a wierd combination lar..

so somebody tell me whaddafuck is wrong with Ms. Tan here..


thoughi'mwityouu;sometimes;
itfeelslyk
you'reonly
almosthere-

sometimes at nite;lovedoesntseemtaexist- :(

-ALLinthenameofLOVE
*say goodbye to yesterday