Monday, March 27, 2006
19:35

ooo it's been a long time since i've blogged as i realise i just don't feel like updating my blog whahahas. anyways, biggest thanks going out to Matt and Felicia and the many many choir people who have brought in some happiness &hope.. =) yeh, i was in a foul mood regarding an issue.. but now i realise there's no point thinking about it already.. it's her decision and their plans.. and maybe i shouldn't have been sensitive on my part- i guess? but hey, discussing such things in front of me when youu know i have some shit issues against that thing.. is it respectful in the first place? ok let's not use respect.. maybe.. just pity me and plan when i'm away lah can? i already resort to ask to be pitied not respected..

the ghost of youu; is all that i have left- it's all that i have left of youu to hold-

give and take.. an essential part of a true and understanding friendship... come to think of it.. there are people who just wanna take and not give anything back.. it's totally saddening, cause when youu feel youu've done quite a bit for that person, and put in ur utmost effort into helping that person.. you realise that the other party wont ever sacrifice/give way to youu at all.

what is a good example of a true friend? well, that's for youu to decide.. cause everyone has their own expectations. what's yours?

so i'd be going with the two of them.. "so what?", you may ask.. "it is just a concert!"

its not the concert dearrest..
its the fact that we agreed..
and u ended up backing out.
after all the discussions..

......

after me getting so much damned scolding from my parents jus because i asked them again and again.. just to give you an answer soon... so that youu cld find someone to go to the concert with...

i feel like i have to settle that issue once and for all. someway, somehow, im dunwanna let the friendship down.. i'll do all i can to salvage that friendship.. those lunch dates.. those fun times together.. surely i wouldn't want those to be just memories.. over a stupid concert, i don't think we should fight, it's hella stupid! though i'm sad, and i feel hurt, i know that there's always a solution to every problem.. if you dont give up.

however, as easy as it may sound (cause words are always easier than actions)..
its not even near easy.. cause after all...

char's been____really really hurt``



crapcrapcrapshit
and there it goes again..
picking up all the messy pieces..

the jigsaw's pieces are once again removed


and sitting at the little corner.. thelilgirl watches youu leave*



the best thing of the day: CHOIR.. i don't wanna step down.. honestlyy =( i love the fun times with the first two rows of alto mates.. namely Feli, Matt, Rm, Xun, Germaine and some others.. without youu guys.. choir would have lost its meaning..

-ALLinthenameofLOVE
*say goodbye to yesterday