Thursday, March 09, 2006
19:57

i didn't know how a day's incidents can really change the life of a person. i didn't know how a day's incident could also show how true your friends are. and i didn't know a day's incident could just ruin a person's life..

have you felt the feeling that you'd wanted to help someone.. and assure the person that you'd always be there.. but somehow.. you knw that you can honestly do nothing? would your constant words help them realise they're not alone? or would they be overly irritated.. though they know you're doing it for their own good? sometimes you just wish you could do more.. but again, on a second thought.. you felt that shutting up would do the trick.. its a freaking dilemma.. a fucked up and terribly confusing situation.. cause you know you can do nothing.. but you wanna do something.. but then on second thought you'd rather not.. =(

being in this kinda situation makes your mind go all whirly.. esp if you make the other party 'upset' or 'pissed off' with your words which were meant to be encouragement.. thank God i didn't make the other party feel that way.. but i feel so useless now.. 'cause i really wanna do something to help.. esp with the type of situation the person's in.. i really want to help, cause that person's done so much for me.. the person had shown me love for a long time.. but.. i just dont know what to do.. and honestly, that makes me terribly.. terribly.. useless..

i was listening to Mr Ang's morning devotion today (suddenly i felt the inspiration to do that), and found it really thoughtful.. and something i could dwell on.. i've understood his devotion cause i've thought through what he'd mentioned last year.. i asked myself then.. why do we rmb God giving us an unfair life.. but we rarely praise him, or see the 'good' side to the bad hiccup?

What's wrong with the minds of people now?
Why do we see nothing but a competitive and angry society?
Why do we see bias acts from those who teach us and nuture our moral values too?
Why are people who thinks they're right.. wanna always be right?


the world is going all wrong.. society's all crappy..
haixx.. i just hope that situation would settle soon..
im praying.. and no matter what the outcome..
i'll still love you (:


cause i must learn to believe that all things have its goods*

the day went pretty alright.. damn sian.. until someone told me something that had happened.. i really wished life could have been more smooth flowing for that someone.. but then again.. that someone will have goodness and grace from God, one way or another.. and i believe that the someone can pull through!

thank you Xun.. :) really thanks..

-ALLinthenameofLOVE
*say goodbye to yesterday