Wednesday, March 01, 2006
23:48

just when i thought i had the mood to blog a long and lovely entry after being "away" from blogging the past days.. i was wrong.

just when i was about to blog about my ash wednesday happenings..
things got real screwed up and now im in no mood

lies. does it really bring anyone anywhere?
rumours. does it really bring those big mouths anywhere?
over-protection. does it really do any good?

i really don't know what im feeling anymore.i thought that she turned a blind eye to this whole situation. i guess.. i was wrong.. and it hurts cause i dont even know her well.. and she had to do that to me.. yeah i know i'm not the goody-two shoes kinda sec four student.. but it doesnt mean i don't deserve a 'property' of yours.. hais.

ven was just telling me today; that i'll have to tolerate this for a long time.. but it's really hard.. i dont know how to deal with it anymore.. =( i feel so bad.. that i could the cause of scoldings, railings and fights in another family..i didn't mean for this to happen.. and i didn't know you're really such a pathetatic selfish immatured woman.

its fucking upsetting i tell you. thank God i still have the motivation to do well for ss tmr. if not i'll literally shut myself away from reality..

to all those big mouths and 'beautiful' gossippers.. i know you guys love to bitch around etc..let me tell you..while you love to do that.. and spread things about others..you're hurting more than one people..

this has nothing to do with ppl in our age group. im just stating a fact in general.. so ya.. it's the period of lent now (the period before easter).. so do some reflection.. penance & abstinence if you gossip about others or bitch about them will ya?

you dont know how many people's relationships/friendships you'll hurt


now im in a big dilemma..
and im sick..
the feeling is horrible..
im totally upset.. and motivationless.. well, except for ss and eng tmr la.. that's all im motivated for tmr..

yup, that means i wont be happy in a maths tuition; neither will i be happy at my piano recital...
im literally dying..
stressed out..

=(

she's fallen from grace..
she's all over the place..

well just a short thing from today..
today i did revision for ss. ct today was pretty shitty; just hope i'll pass- went on the engineering thing today. went with ven to meet kl.. passed kl some stuffs.. get well soon dear.. im already missing yahh. =( then something happened.. but i thought it wldnt turn out that bad.. went home studied ss.. went to church after that.. and to be honest..

i was damn happy..
except that im stress & sick la..
but at least.. happy.

till she came along..
hais.. i no mood le la

bye for now-

-ALLinthenameofLOVE
*say goodbye to yesterday