char's blog

Tuesday, March 07, 2006
19:11

[N]ow______________[x]

i've realised that im fed up and confused

about what's been happening...

but i still have no guts to say it all out.

sometimes when i look at you..

i just wanted to ask... 'You alright girl?'

or maybe.. 'How about lunch this friday?'

But i'd wonder before asking you..

was i just any other friend of hers now?

Or still that special someone?

[D]rifting____________[x]

i hate the idea of drifting..

but then again.. its a natural thing..

human error.. to put other stuffs..

and every other friendship before a particular..

which was once so strong.. and now so barren.

I look at the letters..

the advices.... and what remained of our

friendship/relationship..

after all we've been through..

is this parting worth it?

[E]veryone_________[x]

makes mistakes..

and i know you did.. and so have i..

we might have said things we both regret..

and because of that we've nothing to say to each other now..

you say, i say, and more troubles formed..

till it piled up in heep.. and it cant be resolved...

Why cant we just put everything aside..

and go back to the way things were?

to the days we would hang out and do silly things..

You may think i'm angry with you..

cause of one silly thing...

I agreed i have been..

fuming mad with much high blood pressure..

but.. i was more of heartbroken and upset than angry..

and now i really wanna bury the hatchet..

[T]ears____________[x]

fall from my eyes just thinking about this..

Maybe im the lousier friendship keeper..

Or maybe i've let you down...

But to be honest.. a friendship is an

agreement on two parts..

to start one.. both parties have to commit..

and to patch back a broken one..

both.. have to work together..

you know who you are*

im just stating this..

as i really cannot contain

it inside me anymore..

you might not have read this..

cause maybe.. this blog ain't one of

your daily readings anymore..

but im just gonna leave it here..

till as long as this blog stays*

I loved that friendship... which i once smiled while talking about it.. now, i could barely smile.. all i could do was think silently about it.. and maybe see drops of tears..

xoxo signing out xoxo

o__-[x]char____o

-ALLinthenameofLOVE
*say goodbye to yesterday