Friday, February 17, 2006
22:34

first my zen..
now .this.


i dont know who has so much hatred and spite against me, that he/she has to resort to taking what doesn't belong to them. i've worked so hard to earn the credits from my parents.. to get these things that i really want, yet all these people do is just wash all the happiness away, because they are selfish and only care about what "benefits" them. i don't hate the sinner, i only hate the sin. but it really hurt me loads. I've never had anything so great against the people in this school.. and i've never mixed around with bad company, and bring evil and hurt to another person via physical means, have i? i feel like drowning myself, and isolating myself from people.. i cannot tolerate the fact that one of the safest place in Singapore (schools), is actually the place where people start learning to steal.

and just when i feel sad because someone stole my phone, some people had to actually make things worse. as i'm typing, i'm actually remembering all the things that some loved ones had promised me.. and now, i really don't know how to confide in anyone anymore.. it's so heartbreaking. and when i'm in a bad mood, i'd still try to cheer others up.. but some just think that 'myself' is all that matters. as much as your own problems are your priorities, does it really itch to help another person who is as sad, or even worse? and worse thing is, the person was someone i'd never expect, and i'm real disappointed. and another can never sort out his priorities in life.. it's always those two things above everything else.. so how can i trust? how can i live on by depending on these people if i'd fall? who'd really be there for me?

thanks to most of the 4G people..
thanks matt..
thanks xunny..
thanks samantha..
thanks felicia..
thanks ben choo..
thanks calista..

and thanks to all those who've helped me.. one way or another.. you guys are cherished..

and oh yea.. thanks calvin chang for saying 'first u lost your zen, then now yr hp.. nxt time ur life ah?' okok i know you were joking.. ah well.

oh yea and to that stealer: i don't hate you; i just want you to realize that you're wrong.. get a life..

till nxt time.. bb

-ALLinthenameofLOVE
*say goodbye to yesterday