Thursday, February 09, 2006
22:54

hello!

today was an freakkingg shitty and negative day. i had no intentions to blog today, but just a few minutes ago, there was this sudden urge to just turn on the computer and blog. today, i've felt many emotions, and i really thank God i managed to pull through that time with the help of 2 great buddies! thanks matt & xun :) although i'm still feeling the hurt & frustrations because of the problem (which i will say later).. i'm glad to know that true friends do exist. hey, that's one positive thing for a start.. in school, physics went alright.. and mrs ong is kinda.. different now.. i mean, she's more 'open' and ain't that monotone and boring. it was a pretty good start to the day, till my dearest chinese teacher ruined it! have you heard of 'excessive unnecessary praises'? well if you haven't, you should come to my chinese class, where she praises people for doing things that ain't out of the ordinary. i got praised for bringing loadsa gao zhi (chi writing paper), like whatever? im not even gonna use all the gao zhii lar.. and she was practically straining her chicken like voice.. (ear-plugs please) CME was damn boring, and we couldn't go down to view the exhibits. we had to stay in class, and listen to the boring video clips. as much as i wished that we could go out to get some fresh air, i also hoped that cme wouldn't ever be, this boring.. maybe, they shouldn't have cme as well. we should just have the 'free period'.. like lifeskills right.. blahs! speaking of lifeskills, i felt that my ss teacher did us a great helping by stressing the importance of school life on tues. i didn't blog about it on tues, but i'm gonna blog it now.. she was telling us that she would rather meet her ex student who had matured and has a better attitude next time.. rather than one who's so high and mighty, yet with some attitude you can really call, stinky. studying ain't only about the grades, its more of the character development.. and that, i totally agree with her. she was saying that we might not remember her.. but i'll definitelyy rememberr her.. and what she said during lifeskills on tues. we planned a pair work compo for english today, entitled 'a blessing in disguise'.. it was a fun time, and jia ying and i came up with a pretty good storyline. i just hope that i'll be able to express it out in writingg.. chemistry was held in the lab.. and today.. we had another lecture from her about character and all the little moral stuffs. 'consideration'.. 'responsibility'.. yeah that kindd. i don't really like science pratical, as you get the smell of gases all over you.. but oh well.. it's not as bad as jc/uni science.. and i heard that they always use conc. acid in jc/uni.. blahs.. if i'd ever take up sciences.. i think i'd carry a rosary in my pocket all the time.. +) we had an e maths test on locus today.. all i can say is: i hope i'll PASS. blahs.. had chinese supplementary after school.. it was freaking BORING... with her voice.. what could be worse.. and the bad thing is.. chinese and i nvr goes well together.. i went back with kl, and had a pretty shit up conversation on the phone with someone.. arghh. took 69 home, and i got totally drenched. the exact weather reminded me of the sec3 camp.. now i miss it.. came back home looking as though i just came out of the bathroom.. =X i spent the afternooon folding the remaining stars.. and now i've reached my target! 180 stars and 25 straww hearts.. all placed inside the lil 'milk bottle'.. i dont know if i wanna add more things.. i just hope the person will like it... as its really coming from my heartt... it may not be as expensive as some branded product.. but hey.. its my sincerity! =) my godbrother was playing around with the stars, while i was folding more.. he's real cute! and he's real intelligent... hah.

so this was what shook me the most.. the thing that really screwed my day. i failed my piano exam. yes yes, AGAIN. and it's all because of one section. i'm still feeling like i'm the dumbest and stupidest person ever to walk the planet.. i'm 15.. and i can't pass my grade 6 theory. fuck it all.. my mother was like scolding me so much when she came back at night.. lecturing me and all... sighh... i was crying like shit when my sister told me the results. but ah well, thanks matt.. for talking to me.. pei-ing mee... thanks la.. thoughh most of the time, he kept repeating his sentences.. blahs.. special thanks to xun for talking to me after that... and now i know who my real soulmate/friends are.. i don't see the need of having so many friends.. yet we don't bother about each other.. all such friends would want would be you to listen to them.. and not them listening to yours..

sometimes i just wish days like these would never exist.. but then again.. its fate.. and God's will.. so the moral of the story is (fill in the blanks, i haven't thought of the ans)...


see you guys tmr. =)

-ALLinthenameofLOVE
*say goodbye to yesterday