Friday, November 18, 2005
23:11

hello...

blogged a rather long post yesterday, and today, maybe it might be as long? well, i don't know myself, haha, but im trying to get over something that happened today, though deep down inside i know that its already something i cannot change. it really did break my heart to see what had happened and what was the result of not living up to a person's expectation and how that person could not live up to your own expectations too. i never demanded anything much, just a strong relationship/friendship, but sadly, the whole thing just gave way, and the worse thing was, the person never even want to try to clear the air. after 2 setbacks, you just want to give up? why? i really am very devasted by that fact? i tried so many ways to revive this relationship, but i guess, its time to stop trying? im hopeless at this, and i dont blame the other party. in fact, i blame myself for being such a failure at mantaining good friendships. yes, i blame myself. i surrender.

well, other than that sad thing, the rest went, pretty well (: i spent the whole morning slacking my ass off while watching the OC on dvd. its quite a nice show, and i like it... haha. i'm left with 2 more disc, 8 more episode, which means... about 5 more hours of glueing my eyes to the television. heh. slacked till my grandma asked me to bring 2 sacks of brown rice to my grandaunt's house. It was... erm. heavy. gosh. it really was okay! i felt like dragging the 2 sacks over, but i felt, hey, lets do some exercise! had to go downstairs to the mini mart to buy a few bottles of drink as well. had a chance to play with my godbro for awhile, and yup, i was happy to see him, and im sure he was happy too =) i miss him already... his sweet innocent little face. he made me smile. (: sometimes, you just need a smile to brighten up your day you know. a smile. wow. its a wonder sometimes how one single smile can lift your cheekbones and just heave a sigh of relief to know that life can't be that bad after all. i guess. (:

had lunch and decided to meet xun to study a maths. well, i realise something, remember in my previous post, i wrote that we should never wear shoes we rarely wear out to go long distant shopping? now let me tell you, never wear old slippers out on a rainy day too! NEVER. i repeat. this is serious serious thing. because, if your slipper BREAKS apart... you'll have serious trouble. it happened to me today... i met xun at his void deck (SO HARD TO FIND) and we started walking... until i realise... why is my slipper so... erm... loose? i looked down... and oh. shit.

char -> 'oh, shit! my slippers. omg'
xun -> 'why did you use such an old slipper! ahhh, now what!'
char -> 'i know! remember who lives near here? KAILING!'

and i started to DRAG my feet all the way.. but thank God it was only about... 20m to her void deck... and then... at that very moment, something else had to happen.

xun-> look i see matt's mother's car
char-> oh really, where. omg, there!
xun-> and there's matt!

and there came the innocent little junior of ours, going to the car, and gladfully taking his lunch (i think) from his mother. at that point in time, i called out his name, so many times. but, he turned back, TO HIS MOTHER, and shouted 'bye mum!'. do i really sound, like his mother? T_T xun tell me i didnt sound like his mother. whaaa piang! but anyway, i went up to KL's house. THANKS FOR THE SLIPPERS KL...

walked down to macs in the rain, and i really wished we had stayed at KL's void deck to study till it stopped raining, but whatever. studied and yup, thanks for helping me xun. =) went down for physics tuition via 69.

went for tuition, the shitty thing happened and the happy moments were all gone. thanks for listening pris... =) went to buy the orange slippers.. same as KL's, just that her's red. same size too. haha. next time KL shall wear one red and one orange slipper and i shall do the same. hehe.

im going to die. i havent even finish my tuition hmwk. and its at 11 tmr. ARGH. SOMEBODY SAVE ME!!!!!!!!!!! logging out... soon... ok fine. logging out now... tk care all! THANKS XUN AND PRIS AND KL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

really. thanks. (: im going to get through this... okay. i am. YES CHAR. U WILL. OKAY!

-sheeeeps go mehhhhhh (:

eniamrahc svul -youu*


latest- i forgot to add the part about the koala and the tree. hehe. was watching the 9pm show.. and the guy said to his partner that they shld hold each other tight, like the koala and the tree. the idea of it is cute. haha. i like it =P

-ALLinthenameofLOVE
*say goodbye to yesterday