Monday, October 10, 2005
20:10

just because of my 2 major piano exams which will last till Feb... im unable t take drums nxt year @ yamaha. just bcus of that. bt i brought it upon myself... sighh. 63bucks per mth. 1hr lessons fer 6mths. why can't i!!! =( my passion has to keep holding on b4 it can be let loose. sobs... i want drums!!

im totally bringing all this shit onto myself. why can't I just live the life i want? memories of the past's back again. so much pain, hurt. i was once that hopeless? i was once that... over emotional? i was once like that. sighh.

now i've gt this life. happier. more cheeful. i know who's true and who's nt. my best sista back in my life again. i've found the meaning of true love frm all my loved ones.

but am i demanding too much of my now happy and satisfactory life? m i really really trying to add too much spice and pepper and up dying cus its too spicy and peppery a few months later? will history repeat itself?

what m i doing to my life??
as crazy as it seems.
human r so unpredictable.
crazy life. crazy schedule.
im outt-

-ALLinthenameofLOVE
*say goodbye to yesterday