Thursday, September 08, 2005
19:37

today was a super slack dayy for me. most probably, i'm going to do my homework tonight. hopefully i won't fall asleep. sighh. i have been focusing on so many things in my life except for my studies. the finals are approaching so soon, and i'm still not in the mood to mug. i keep telling myself that this is not the right thing to do, but why am i just slacking through the days that i'm free? i keep stoning. my bad term 3 results didn't even wake me up! what am i doing to my life. sigh.

anyway, I had geog lesson this morning. it was held in the meeting room, and goodness, I was just copying the model answer blindly. I was thinking only if Mrs Khoh starts her sudden 'debates' with me or when she asks me for my opinion. and i realised who was the one who got 74 for humanities. oh well, even though i found out, its not even motivating me to do better. feeling so lousy. my counsins don't even need so much help and motivation, so why can't I be like them? even my good friends have been studying, and putting in more motivation. Just when will I start?

Madhu's back in Singapore for her vacation, but she's sick, so we couldn't meet her today. We'll most probably meet up with her on Saturday, that's if she's well. Its been so long, I wonder what's going to happen. Maybe things would change? Maybe things wouldn't be like last time? Oh well, I am happy with my current life, so i hope she won't change my life negatively. [I doubt so]. After all, we are the ones controlling our lives, so why should we even care about things that makes us sad?

I dragged my feet home with a heavy bag full of books i left at Joyce's house cause I went out on the last day of term 3, and i didn't want to drag it around tm. haha. After that, I came home, got a scolding from my grandma. That's so sad. We're always fighting. I hurried off to my grandaunt's house to help her with some stuffs. i found out so many things! she was telling me so many of the stories, not to mention some family matters that i never thought I would find out.

I came back, and i was slacking for awhile, afterwhich i cycled down to the reservoir. Met up with Clare, and we took a walk around the Tampines area, went for bubble tea, and we talked quite a lot.

I came back, took a great shower and went to eat dinner. I was talking to my cousins about my Godparents. Like as if they played a big part in my spiritual life. They don't really mean anything to me, not because i hate them, but seriously. All they do is buy those things i 'fancy' or want. And after that quarrel on my birthday, I never spoke to my Godmother anymore. So much for having such Godparents. But God has a reason for it, so I shall just pray! was wondering how things would go at my confirmation next year. haha, lets just hope there won't be any major quarrels and disagreements at my church next year (I'm getting confirmed next year)

signing off. hope you guys enjoy the last few days of this freaking short holiday!

char-

-ALLinthenameofLOVE
*say goodbye to yesterday