Tuesday, July 05, 2005
18:56

gonna blog b4 gng fer piano... cus... i feel that this is rather important... and once again... verena... its not you. lolz. i guess i have to keep saying that... until... i abandon blogging? hmmm... okay... let me see...

i found out some things today. about some people.. and about a particular thiing in my life i thought was so dear to me... ok... the thing i experienced today... made me realise... what true frenz really are. true friends aint the one... who will keep saying... i'll be there for u... verbally... but nvr once... nvr ever... did they actually do it physically. i told you guys alreadyy... if u aint happy... come straight to me and tell me straight. somehow tat has to be done... well... gossiping is in fact something we gurls love.. aint it? i mean... everyone bitches around...

but not to the extend of some 'close' friends i had... gng around and brainwashing others. n... putting on that act. i know... we learnt about the damned 'mask' thingy on inno fest's assemblyy prog.. but... this is about fren. not jus working people?

she kept askkiing me if everything was alright.. ok.. i kinda told her. but.. she was faking dammit? so much for being a true fren. in fact... so much fer being a GOOD FRIEND huh? and another one... one moment... u n i... were like... well... u cld say... reali gd budds. i trusted u... we were there fer each other physically... but now. what happened? totally... gone. the friendship. GONE. why? bcus... u were ACTING. u were blahdee hell... ACTING LIKE ASSIF I WLDNT FIND OUT! what the hell is wrong with our frenship? jus bcus i spoke abt topics this clique doesnt like... or jus dun like... or... mebbe i jus talk about one thing tt has no 'link'.

but hello? have u guys thot abt my feelings? me? what are true frens fer. huh? backstabbing each other? n being hypocrites? i nvr ever told anyone anything about u guys... i jus shut my mouth up everytime someone asked me something!

no more sister. no more clique. i mean it. what are true friends for? definitely nt to backstab each other. ok fine.. mebbe its my fault tt i have guy friends n i talk more to them at times. but for GOD'S SAKE SINCE WHEN HAF I NEGLECTED U GUYS TO ANY EXTEND.

thank u:
pris, jeremy, rong ming, calista, sharanya.

to some ppl: i nvr thot... i nvr did.

-ALLinthenameofLOVE
*say goodbye to yesterday