Monday, June 06, 2005
20:20

hello guyz..
changed the settings of my blog.. now can onli c one post. so sry to those hu wld miss the one b4 the 'current' ones. hahaz. but i tink tis way betta bah? n mebbe.. i even takin out my archive tagss.. cus of some reasons. woke up at 8.30 tis morn. met clare at bedok mrt @ 10.. yay wasnt late. hehe. my legs damn pain lor. bought a new wallet. den e middle finga pen. X) orange color de. hehe. den i bought some stuffz frm popularr.. cus i runnin outta color pens le.. went ta orchard and bugis respectively.. quite fun. ate at kfc fer lunch.. was talkin to clare abt quite a few thingss. abt nt gettin married n workk onli.. ya tokin abt things along tt line. haha.. n quite interesting. mebbe i shldnt get married! X) haha den we brought in a lil religon thingss. quite interesting talks today i must agree. sounds like im in a gd mood? wrong la.. cus i'll leave the whines fer laterr. hahahaa... so if u dunwan hear the bad things den when i end this para. den u can leavee. haha. ok so im leaving tmrr. almost everything settled. re4mattin my zen now. haha. cus everythin went madd. re transferrin all my songss. veh lil lorr. sighh. i needa get more! more! X( mebbe later i go dl some. had quite a yummy dinner. gonna miss the nice f00d at home when im gonee... =( haha but nvm... im gng to chiang mai to serve anyways. hahaz.

-ok this is the end of the happeh part. guyz. thanks fer viewin. lolz. the sad part is nextt. to all hu is closin the box aft tis part. byeeee. dun mis me when im gone! =]

this is the sad part of the post. things are rly gonna b kinda vulgarr i guess? but if u can tolerate. den stay on n read. ur welcome to close the box anytime. luv u guyzz. thanks to those hu bother to read. ur either someone hu hates me cus u wanna c me suffer. or u wan use my weakness to plot something against me. or u wan frame me or wadever. u cld b someone hu luvs me. n i thank u fer tt. i tink i knw hu u guys wld b. luv u guys loads ya? hmm. some ppl will be recieving emails i think. or mebbe one or two i dont know. lol. okok.

ya ok.. the sad parts.

my ah ma.. is makin me.. go mad. pris i honestly think i can go to the mental hospital. so many things are driving me up the wall! all my authorities are makin me loose my temperr. sighh. n i really cannot take it anymore. to them, i am now a rebellious lil ah lian hu hangs out w guys n guys onli. i hate these fucking bullshits ok? i cannot tahan le. even my cousins are tinking tt im having a boifrenn. pls.. i rly dont and they tink i do. fuck? spread rumours if u must. im an outcast in this family anyway. u tink im not upset? i am. i so am. and things got worse when some friendship problems came along. and when jesley called me today.. i was like.. so happy.. reading things on the web... until. suddenly. she said it. den i jus shouted 'fuck'. n den i told her soli i hafta go. slammed down the phone and fucking hell.. i cried my ass out. in the bathroom. i was cryin. tinkin.. do i realli deserve this? why? issit rly fated? i am damn upset okay? i didnt show it on my bdae bcus i knew it was a day when i had ta b happy. sighh. things aint getting any better. fuckk siaz.. i really damn broken and shattered deep down okay? i onli dunwan show it. but tis time.. i realli cannot. CANNOT tolerate it anymore. sighh. i am so fed up. i am so upset. i really duno what to say. sighh.

kk la. gonna dl my other songs le. bye guyz.

-ALLinthenameofLOVE
*say goodbye to yesterday