Friday, June 17, 2005
10:55

well, no doubt abt it, a year ago, durin the June hols, I was happy. haha. read my archives, this blogg, went on fer... almost a year le. (= i changed my link onli once... and all cld watch my lifee advance frm nt so gd, to a gr8 point in my life. n.. suddenly everythiing jus plop down to oh so negativee.. n den.. improvedd.. n now? haha. a mix of everythiing. hmm, no doubt about it, like my piano teacher sayss... "everyone has their ups n downs..." hmm. i tink she's only referrin ta my pianoo. sighh. screw it. failed it like shit... n based on historyy of the tan/khew family.. mua is the only one, the first ever in their oh so perfect family to...

1) flunk an abrsm pratical/theory exam
2) play online games like maple, which they all totally detests.
3) pierce one other ear hole, which duh, they detestt.
4) start using msn. hmm. im nt the oldest in all the grandchildrenn lei.
5) get a hp. yup.
6) understand html. w00t.
7) exceed my phone bill.
8) pick a big fight w my parents/ah ma/maid
9) fail 2 subjects in a mid year exam (im considered stupid fer doin tis)
10) told by some authoritative figure to get out of the house. (yeaa, dunwan me mahh)
11) mix around w guys (when they're more 'dong shi' in sec sch)
12) to brin guys back 2 e house.
13) hold a bdae party

n honestly, the list goes on. im lazy to write on.. haha. watched a series of un4tunate events las night. n... haha. sunny was sooooo cute.. well... it rly was a gd showw. quite depressing at the start if u wld ask me fer my honest opinion. i mean, u watch all of their relatives dying one by one. n tt stupid guyy. damn, duno how to spell his name. hmm. but actor's jim carreyy. hahaa. tt guy in the show... whaaa. he rly made life difficult fer the children. ahha. but w the inventor, the genius n the biter aroundd, which are the 3 kids.. wad cld possibly happen to em? haaha. nth. so tt means, their still fortunate. been readin tagboards, testimonials and many more tis morn. geog pjt gt cancelled. so im stuck at home till abt 4+. gng fer tuition aft tt. sian.. mus pay tuition fees despite my family alreadi havin crisis cus of my grandmotherr's hospital adventuree... haha. how negative can life get. jus when u thot, ur gd frens... will always b ther fer u.. hmm. i rmb.. askin ppl to write testimonials fer me or.. comin down to pei me fer awhile.. or.. jus hopin they wld tag my boardd or.. mebbe jus gimme a call when i was rly in the need of one.. hmm. some gt lahh. willingly. as in, even i dun tell/ask oso they will take their time to do it.. hmm. owell. tyty. i rmb when someone was secretly tokin to me on the phone like so late at nite.. constanly on the lookout 4 parents' toilet trip. haha. i loved tt time so much. n... another time... another person called me to study togetherr. on the phone. it was fun.. but my dad called me to go to sleep cus it was abt midnite? n i rmb the time when some fine fellas came overr to studyy a new sub.

as memorable as all these seem. some negative things came outta them. haha. some of the frenships ended up deterioatingg (yes i knw my spellin sux). im scared tt i will watch all of them leave, one by one. i dunwanna loose some really gd frens.

but sometimes... one... has to let go...
must they really?
or ratherr..
can they bear to?

-ALLinthenameofLOVE
*say goodbye to yesterday