Thursday, June 16, 2005
23:35

everythin turned bad.

when i thought my life became better.
when i thought the meaning of life was present.
when i thought my life was really good.

it was all a sham.

everyone's quarreling with each other. families. friends. the last people i thought would yell at each other. I even saw myself crying over something i thought i wouldnt ever cry over. [omg why is my com so laggy] I even saw myself crying over a certain people. Why? when i thought I was happy and contented with every aspect of my life, everything had to crash. sometimes i really ask myself. where have all my friends gone to? where are they when i need them? its so contradicting. one moment u see something, and another moment it all just disappears and no one would help you. someone once told me, one day i will win. oh yea? will i ever? its so disappointing and upsetting when your closest friends all had something to do n are bz when you're down. gd frens r meant to b here fer each other all the way. right? [hmm, long dist frenship is an exception, though it can get bullshity, i'll meet u in heaven, year 3000!]

(cut short everything, and to the main point)

well, mebbe its nt them. mebbe its nt my frens, my gd frens or my family, or my piano teacher.

maybe.
its just..

me.

-ALLinthenameofLOVE
*say goodbye to yesterday