Wednesday, June 15, 2005
18:56

[re-editted @ 9.15pm]
i failed my piano grd6 theoryy. fuck. bullshit. totally upsettin. i rly wanna giv up. thanks jerm fer ur encouragement (all these long, all these 3 yearss).. i dont knw lah. i was so shocked when i found out. haiz. told my parents. u can roughly imagine what happened. right? sighh.
n i realise my head hurts exceptionally more if i cry/tink too much. esp on the place where i had a lil bump on the church toilet floor las dec. cus i fainted mahh. owellies. sick me. sighh. so hopeless. i duno what to do. im gonna.. hafta decide if i wanna retake my piano theoryy. im so fking tired. of competitions. the stress my family givs me. im nt smart i knw tt. sighh.

hey..
spent the whole day mapling. i dont know why but i gt no motivation to study. slept at 3 again. cldnt sleep. was tokin to KL abt it.. n it seems like its nt gettin anywhere fer me. sighh. i dont knw what to do. told jerm the outline of the storyy. haha. but im nt gonna tink much abt it bahx.. haha jerm was right, i better not make the same mistake again. i rly hope i wont. but im glad, things are gng tis way, cus i rly need ta carry on. (: though i seriously missed the best boat [to me, ta was the best ever. owels].. i knw deep down in my heart... its more abt respectin each other's decision n not tryin to hold on to smth tt will nvr exist. its so heartbreaking. but i cant do anything. can i? owellies. i knw i cant. bt its nt fully over. i guess. it has onli startedd? i luv the song tonghua. n i love the story behind it too. i so hate the guy. he deserved to b depressed. owell. im nt being bias to my gender but really lorr. owell. dont tink i can stay online much 2nite. haha i said tt las nite but i cld cus my dad gave up on me. but today my sis wan use. -bleaghzz- well wish me luck den! mapled up 2 lvls todayy. hmm. wonder how tmr will go. cons n pris, geog pjt still on?? hmm. i canceled my piano tmr. so if they dont haf e pjt. i tink i knw hu to call to go out w me le. -wInKz- hehe. da gege. lol. nt official yet but. ya. we shall c. mebbe. lolz. its always on my mind. i dont know whyy. sighh. now its not a matter of 'why mus i giv up on him, is he the one?' now.. its smth else. n its nt onli regardin him. sIgH. owel. gtg bb

-ALLinthenameofLOVE
*say goodbye to yesterday