Saturday, April 02, 2005
12:15

whoa... been rather long since i las blogged eh? hahaz... im backk... =) sry guyz... havent been in a good mood... n didnt haf alot of time too blogg eitherr... so my past few entries haf been filled w 'fucks' n all those curse wordss... '#&^%#$^%&#' n all tt... it doesnt mean tt im in a real good mood now... im still puzzled n all by loadsa thingys... and my life isnt... realli gd @ da moment now... nt onli by emotional stuffx... but... yupp... many otherrs too...

since da easterr hols e las week... my fwenshipp w some ppl [one in particular esp]... has changed so muchh... and i dont wanna give up... but i found out yst... tt the person has given up.. n has moved on... n the person had no prob givin up on tis frenshipp... i asked myself... y? u mean... aft all this longg... aft 2 years of frenshipp... it didnt mean anithing to that some1? i tried to patch things up... i merely took a breakk... n aft awhile i realise... dat guyy didnt care at all... sighh... m i wasting my time? pris... m i wasting my time? shld i rly giv up on even repairin tis frenship? shld i jus treat him as a complete strangerr? jes... shld i rly wait... n let things calm down... den try again? wld i b hurt again? sab... on thurs.. did he rly c me... n didnt bother to say hi? i actually waved... but did he c? or did he jus turn a blind eye... hais... i dont knw why i treasure fwenshipp so muchh... i cant even let go off a frenshipp... tt is now so cold. so dead. nth animoree...

laz nite... i was smsing pris... cried again... called jes... put down e phone... cried again... smsed jerm... he was doin some AQ thingyy... oh yeahh... today aq... jia you... =) n... hah... i wasted one of e few gd luck i gave... do i giv a shit? yeahh i do... sighh...

aniwaez... was forced to wake up abt 9.30 today... smsed jerm a lil... den met him online... mapled... gt my piggy ribbons... n im officially killing evil eye now to lvl up... hahaz... most probb lahh... lvl 27 now... shldnt b a probby rite... den aft tt... i was slackingg... den i went down... missed jes' call... n... yah... ate moi lunchh

2nite im gng fer avril's concertt... @ SIS... haha... 95 bucks tick... but i didnt buy it.. haha! cant wait... at least i go n scream my lungz out w a punkerr... =))

msgs:

jesley- thanks fer listening las nite... if it wasnt fer ur letta dropping out of my folder las nite... i wldnt haf spoke to eu... sighh.. was tinkin throuhg some of e things u told moi las nite... n... yeahh... most were beneficial.. so... yeahh.. thanks okay? =) n i will tell u abt e concert! =)

pris- thanks fer everythingg e pas few daex... though everytime will end up.... cryingg... but its worth lahh... hahaz... rly worth... sighh... i knw u cant rly help me now...its all up to mi... i gues... but... thanks fer being here fer me okay? u need help.. im here... =)

jerm- i dun need say animore le... haha... since sec 1 till now... i say too muchh of tt word le... but i shall say it one more time again... again... THANK EU! =)

sab- thank eu gurl... i gt loads to tell u

KL- thanks... i luv u... =)

clare- cant w8 to c eu tmr...

someone- giv up? i dont knw... i dunwan too... bt u alreadi did... 2 years of frenshipp... gone liddat? pls... tink through can?

will blogg abt e concert either when i come home or... tmr yeahh? for now.. enjoi ur dae guys...

luv...
charr-maineee...

-ALLinthenameofLOVE
*say goodbye to yesterday