Monday, April 11, 2005
21:11
[RE-RE-editted @ 11.33pm]
yupp ive calmed down... well... i haf nth to say abt my family animore... they can jolly well kill me or wad... but... nvm... i shall *pray* for them... ive decided... to live life... lyk assif i live onli fer e day... n its my las day on earth... by 12 midnite... i'll die... n... ill b renewed... yupp... yst probs... r left w yst... if they're meant to follow... so b it... live w it... tts y ive been hyper... even though... deeeeeeep down... i can feel e pangs of sadnes... hu cares... everyone else has their probs... wldnt it b unfair if i wan them to b here fer me all e time? a dry me deeep down inside... a hyper me on e outside...
hmmm?
[RE-editted @ 10.51pm]
i honestly cannot stand these idiotic arses... mum. dad. ah ma. its MY life... n ur restraining me... i knw u ppl care... 'care' ok wadever... i dont care... bt... u dun even wanna listen to wad i sayy... i giv u all veh lil detailz on where e fuck i am everyday? MY ASS. I EVEN BOTHER to call u. MUM. i did. i ALWAEX do... even though myhp outgng more ex... i STILL DO... DAD. I HATE YOU... u made me realise how much freedom ive onli been given... FUCK U... i hate hate HATE the way u keeep saying tt i dont care abt this family.. if i did...i wld haf LEFT... geddit... i wld haf LEFT E FUCKING HOUSEHOLD... AH MA... i knw im imperfect... ive alwaex been... ive alwaez been an outcast out of all ur 6 grandchildren... YES I LEFT E CONVENT... SOOO???????!?!??!!?!? im still a catholic... i STILL BOTEHR TO GO TO CHURCH W THIS FAMILY... n tis is how ur treating me? im stupid... yes i knw i m... i ADMIT IM STUPID...
STUPID ENOUGH TO LOVE THIS FAMILY SO MUCH...
SO JUS GIV ME A MORE GOD DAMN FUCKING AREA TO
B R E A T H!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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yozzie dearrs... came back home w a sense of satisfaction... thanks to Mr. A maths pro [devang]... i managed to grasp the chpt on graphhs... haha... thank eu thank eu... im nt tt pro... but at least... i fully understandd now... ^^ my my... lyk finally? aft weeks of draggy teachin frm a experienced cher... i finally underst00d everything in less than 3 hours...!!! haha... e day started off w chi... was kindaa boring i mus say? she's rly a pain in the arse... n i didnt knw chinapoint existed ler... she's so irritating... i thot onli chinatown existed... sianz... anyways... chem was next... den... i tink... double E maths? hais... im so sucky @ E maths... thanks Chan fer offering ur help 2mr... aft sch... hehex... my shifu fer e day 2mr! =P nth much happened today... only tt some ppl decided to prankk Dar0n... owells... i wasnt involved... jus tt i knew wad happened lahh... hahaz... they found out in e end ler... bes if they find out frm e ppl hu did it than me... okk... there's nth much to say fer now... abt wad happened today... n... yah...
((hais i wanted to write korean wordiess here... sadly.. cannot c... awww.))
aft sch... went to canteen to study... rly studied okay... hahaz... treated devang fer helping mua... hahaz... bubble tea onli lerr... but... ya... next week still gt more... haha... he's gonna drill me fer logarithms... yay! i dont mind ler... i rly needa get e basics... c! so guai! mus chiiongg fer mid year alreadi lor! hahaz... aft tt... had a longg tok w devang abt piorities... lols... walkin n tokin abt it... drinkin mua bubble tea... he knocked some sense in2 me... =)
came home.. slept... ah ma threw e fucking pillow on2 mua to wake me up... asking me why e hell im sleepin at tis hour when im suppose to do mua work.. n she thew my 2nd ear hole earring in2 e dustbin... FUCK YOU... ='( idiotic biatch... sighh... i didnt yell backk... she left... aft sayin her usual sacarsm... n i cried... fuck... cried muaself to slp... woke up... brudder came 2 me... said e nicest thing i've heard frm him in a long time... 'jie... nvm abt mama okay? she's liddat wan... if she dont love you nvm... i love you... when she around dont wear ear stick okay!' awwww... bro... i love yoo too!
messages to...:.:...
mr. devang-> thank eu boii... if it wasnt for u... yupp... i wld b stuck w my graphs... when u guyz learn finish 4.3... teach mua okay! haha... -pat pat- gd luck fer mid year! jia you!
miss koh-> c u tmr at e macs outside... dont b late! *prays* i wan go coffee shop... cfm le... ^^
mr. chan-> thank u 4 offering mua help... fer e.mathss... =P appreciate it loadz... ill c u in e canteen tmr! ill b a nice tudi n w8 while u listen to sng's naggs... hehe... tc boii!
yuppiex... i guess tts abt all...? nth much to say... hehe... yaya... buh buaiz!
- chArrY. mAineY. MaInE. mAinE -
-ALLinthenameofLOVE
*say goodbye to yesterday