Friday, February 18, 2005
20:08
screw my life... screw e world... screw my 'friends' n screw my family... jus screw everything. first time im home lyk so blahdee early... sighhz...
lyk i expected... today sucked again. my E maths test... was fuckingly sick... my damned parents... yelled at me first thin in e morn... y? jus bcus i said i duno if i had anithing on today n i told dem i will b home late... wads their damned prob... hu r they to check on me... its my life ryte... i do wadever i want... den my dad sent an apoplogy sms to me. lyk i gave a fuck abt it. i immediately deleted it... screwable parentz... n my siblings r hella irritating too.
lets jus conclude tt everythin is jus too gay. everything's over. my feelings fer him may stil b strong... bt i can feel e resistance building up... i feel lyk givin everythin up. i thot i can wait (fer him) till O lvls end... but... if i really wait... i wld reali mean gng through a lot of pain... sighh...
so many things may haf happened in class todayy... but i reali in no mood to type it all out... fuck... wad a damned life im havingg... really wanna end everything lor...
aft sch... i went to c if Sabita or Ber was free... was suppose to go w Sab to get smth... but she say she no money... den i realised... after awhile... i was standin there la... den i wasnt needed there... so i jus left... i felt so fucking pissed (seriouslyy. i hate it when its lyk tis)... sighh... den came outta sch gate...saw e 2A'o4 guyss... really miss them loads... realli miss da noiseee... e fun... e trust... but... didnt talk la... i jus felt so... pissed off by everything todayy.. even if i wanted to tok to them or smth... i wld b e onli gurl w them at lunch... so its totally outta e qn...
i mapled todayy... went up 1 lvl... spent lyk..i duno how many hrs on e com todayy... den i went to sleeeep.. now i gt smth to do on e com!!! <--- jarett tan c tis!!! GRRRR... giv me a life bro
to all hu seriously care:
i knw hu u r... n i knw ur alwaez there fer me.... lyk how u r here fer me 24/7... im here fer u all too. thanks guys.
to those hu say they 'care':
if i dun mean anythingg to u deep down inside, its bettter u jus quit actingg n carry on w ur on luvly life... im nt sayin tt i dunwan u ppl in my life... but ur callin urself a fren of mine when u actually aint one... so quit it...
to e pang seh(ers):
i knw u haf alot of things to accomplish... i knw u guys r smarter than me... jus... quit acting tt u care ok... it pisses ppl off...
logging off!
-ALLinthenameofLOVE
*say goodbye to yesterday