Friday, February 04, 2005
20:48

screw it...

life is so suckk... im sick... n my parents n ah ma sayy its bcus i keep havin late nites n nvr take care of miselff... they say my medical $$$ damn high recently... u tink i wan mehh...sIao aRhz... go 2 hell... im scared of takin medicine lor... i hate it... den its no choice den todayy go doc kaez... u tink i wan waste ur moneyy issit.. go die siaz...

its so bullshitt... i dun understand... they're my familyy... n *hell* they onli care abt moneyy... seriously... so tt means if i die... or run awayy frm home dey will b happi lah... haiz...

doc sayy mi flu is veh serious le... im scared u knw... i dunwan end up fightin w my parents ova moneyy issues again... im so hatin it le lor... everytime.. they wil nvr fail to pick on mi de... sighh.. i hate it... i hate tis fkin household... my dad sayy i treat tis house lyk a hotel... if he wans... i can u knw... i CAN okayy... fuck la...

sighh... sch was an ultimate bore todayy... i gt back chem prac test... 18/30... grr... i now B4 avg... sighh... mus workk harder ba... den... e maths test... haiz..i nvr studyy... so... ya... expect fail la... sighh.. bo chap!

went 2 eat at LJS w family aft sch... den my stomach started to get so pain.. den my father was lyk.. 'y nvr take care of urself!'... FINE! grrr...

talkin to a few frens now... most active is between mi and jerm... tellin him abt e whole doc bs... hais... den msging sab... my 2 gd frens... wonder how life wld b w/o them...

slept frm 3-7.. reali no strengthh....

can i really carry on............

m i strong enuff.......................?

Jerm- thanks...
KL- tc ok... dun brood over unhappi thingys...
all those hu care- thx... i appreciate ur concern..

-ALLinthenameofLOVE
*say goodbye to yesterday