Thursday, February 17, 2005
22:22

helo ppl.

today was a rather hetic dayy n i really owe some ppl some thx... hmmm... to start off, thx calvin c. (thankin him fer e 2nd time i tinkk) fer helpin mi las nite... although it wasnt fer a veh long time, at least i managed 2 calm myself down. hahaz. n thanks to jacq too. kept me company until 12+... realli duno y she's a person i can tok to only if there ish enuf time... hahaz... rmb wad i said in e conversation yahh jacq... hope to haf a betta dayy in classes w herr...

yst smth happened... related to family stuffx. i honestly tink tt if everydayy were to go on lyk tis, i wld probbie break down soon. sighh... i left so many things undone, n i reali dun haf e strength to carry on... sighh... piano... im totally neglectin it... its my las year... n y m i nt jus focusin jus fer once. i realli cant work well under stress.

today was a rather boring day... chem lesson filled my lungs w toxin gases. god it so sucks. i really cannot tahan so much gases diffusin ard e classrm's atmosphere. sighh... e rest of the dayy... nth significant la... i really feel so dead durin lessons, n i realli miss 2A... its lyk... i can here anil's voice comin frm 3A classrm loh.. i reali mis those fun times... when we had all those noises... wonder if 3B wld eva b e same as tt... i doubt i wld actually... or mebbe it jus takes more time? i duno la.

my throat hurts, but i still went fer choir lahh... i tinkk... ms lee reali can teach so much more betta than mr tayy... sit in front reali cannot slack wor... todayy first time i had no choice den sit in front... sianz... went w sab n gio to macs aft tt... den on e wayy backk... i realised... my synergy tics were missingg... haiz... den i walked backk to sch n c if i left it behind/dropped it... den it turned out it was outside e sch... sIao... all trampled overr... haix... but...nvm la... at least i gt e tix backk... thanks sab!! so kind of her nia... help mi find... n keep me company till my bus came... hahax...

when i came online todayy... so many things happened... i honestly duno hu to help... both oso my gd frenx... i reali treasure e both of them... if i lie my way through... fer their own gd... ill sometimes reali hate to c e outcome... i was talking to calvin jus now abt stress, academic stuffz... n life... n owellz... thx again fer knockin sense in2 me... whahaa, though i said smth i nvr thot i wld... hahaz... abt life... sianz... was talking to pris online too... gurl jia you okie, i wld definitely b here fer u no matter wat. yupyup n tts a promise- as fer jeremy... gd luck! n... sorry...

i duno wad to do... i feel lyk... i shld stay outta it... but... if i do... more things wld come my wayy... n i feel veh. bad too... wad to do? fuck my bro is gettin irritating!!! grr... he's blowin e recorder in a sucky wayy... im realli in a badd mood.. im supa confused...

im so scared of E maths paper tmr... i reali haf no faith in myself... everyone is lyk doin ok w E mathss... im afraid ill cry aft e maths paper again... lyk las yearr... final year... sighh... im scared. realli scared. i dunwan another breakdown tmr... 2 in a row le... i reali cant take it animore...

haix-

calvin: thanks mann~ dun worry abt ur future or wad first la... concentrate on wad's happenin now first okie... ill b here fer u too! =)
pris: ill b here fer u~ b it if its e end.. or it carries on.. i promise... =)
jacq, sab: thanks
jeremy: all e best... u haf my support in everythin u do... =)

everyone hu is under stress: lets pray fer eachh other!

-ALLinthenameofLOVE
*say goodbye to yesterday