Tuesday, January 18, 2005
16:03

me was awoken by my ah ma tis morn at 6.55... i wanted to wake up at 7.10... even set mi alarm clockk... but she had to wake me up [why!!!] i didnt feel lyk wakin up earli... i jus didnt feel gd all over... oh yah... if jacq ever c tis... thanks alot gurL... abt las nite... it was a memorable chat w yahh... =)

didnt turn on my hp e whole nite... i jus didnt feel lyk doin anithing... everythin seems so fucked up... n i really jus wanna live a simple life... y wun anione understand tt? n tis morn... mrs peh didnt allow me to not play fer SCC... sighz... i dun geddit... im nt veh gd at e piano lor... tell her 1000+ times le... if i was gd... i wldnt mind... really... but i really honestly aint gd at it.. n i honestly dun haf any interest in it at all... to hell w piano... n if i screw up on e 28th... she cant blame me... cus i alreadi WARNED her... grrr

today... in class... things were okay lah... haha... had e first 'bdae celeb' of e year... Daron's 15... hahaa... happy bdae... den... other than tt... nth was interestin... onli chem... haha... oh yah... n durin recess oso lah... some shit joke jacq came up w... haha... but over all... e day was fkin sian...

went w ber n sab fer lunch @ macs aft sch todayy... n it seems lyk... tt woman wun stop showin up... sigh...

was wonderin abt me n him and me and her the friendship... fer e him... i wonder if things wld get betta... aft all... rarely tok le... sighz... nt bcus we fight... or angry w each other... its jus... sighh... really no chance to tok... den if we tok...its lyk we're both bz w hw... den tok also lyk... hais...

as fer her... our piorties r now damn de diff... our classmates r diff... wld e frenship still b as strong? i duno wad to do... really... its nt assif im tinkin too much.. im tinkin too lil... n i nvr bother to make any changes...

so hu's e one to blame?

mebbe its me... mebbe im jus e one to b blamed fer everything...

logging off]]*

-ALLinthenameofLOVE
*say goodbye to yesterday